Over and over and over and over and over again..........

Yes....my fear is slowly materialising.....slowly devouring me.....

Yes.... seems like its gonna be the same.....always the same....forever the same outcome....

Yes...I never learn....always repeating the same mistakes....or are they mistakes in the 1st place.....?

Yes...it was me....its me now and will always be me in future.....

Yes....I know I have become strong....I have to be strong....but that doesn't mean I can relive the same experiences over and over and over again....

Yes....the vicious cycle....the haunting cycle....the cycle of utmost sadness and pessimism....I can't break free....already intertwined with the cycle perhaps......

Yes....perhaps.....I should go into hibernation.......perhaps...I should change my character and be someone else....perhaps....I should just stop my pursuit for happiness....

Yes.... prolly happiness was not meant for me in the 1st place.....

Yes... I have once again let everyone down......I'm sorry, really....but I just can't help it.....

Yes....its time......it's time to start singing to me "Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you..".... and I should have been hearing that for countless times.....

Yes....its just me and me only....and NO....its not your fault......