S is down...

S is feeling down.... Things has not been smooth-sailing for S since the start of Jul... S starts to doubt himself... Is S incompetent? Is S really that lousy?

S has been trying to keep up with deadlines...Trying real hard... Everyone wants things to be done for them fast and everyone wants lotsa things from S... Noone cares if S can cope with the deadlines. Neither does anyone cares if S can manage......

Since the start of Jul, S has been churning out reports.... Reports and more reports....S is tired...exhausted...and S has not been sleeping well....Perhaps its the weather, S is feeling sick... Can it be flu.. or just fatigue?

S had previously requested for namecards as the nature of his job requires him to meet vendors/external parties.... Much to his dismay, S was told that justifications have to be made in order for S to have his namecards....Why? Simple reason.... S is a junior officer in his company and junior officers are NOT entitled to namecards!! How bizzard.....Senior officers in his company will, by default, be issued with namecards just because they are senior officers, regardless whether they have any need to use them or not!! Shouldn't namecards be issued to officers who need them instead of issuing them based on seniority? Logical right? S shared his views with his boss and was given the impression that S is sooo hard up for namecards... Sad... noone seems to understand S....

S discovers by chance that his company has blocked access to Facebook. He feels that this move is rather silly as MCYS has recently launched a REACH profile in Facebook and they have invited PM to grace the launch....yet S's company blocked access to the website... S mindlessly voiced his views on the move and was chided by his boss for being "unreasonable".... Unreasonable!!! After 3 years in the department with his boss, that was the 1st time S's boss used such a harsh word on him.... S was unhappy...very unhappy...as S was just ranting and his boss took whatever he said sooo seriously..........

S feels that noone... practically noone in his company understands him and what he is experiencing.....

S is tired.......S is sick.... S is unwell..... S wants to be strong again... soon....real soon..........


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